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XBiz Awards & Upcoming Conferences

Remember when I shot that incredible porn with Pink and White Productions called “Occupied” about a protestor from the Occupy movement who has a romantic interlude with a cop? Well, it won 2014 Feminist Release Of The Year from the XBiz Awards! What a way to start the year! As my usual pedantic self, I rambled on about why I love Crash Pad and why this win is important within the context of porn production over at their website. You can tell it was in post-production for awhile just from the length of my hair which is now mucchhh longer. It was obviously worth the wait!


This film was an incredible shoot, one of my all time best performances, and a marker of incredible growth for me. I got take on some material that was close to my heart and play a character who was close to me and far, far, far from the image of a glamorous porn star. It was fantastic! When I was making this film, I was excited to do something hardcore that played off the tensions I was seeing and experiencing in Oakland. I wasn’t thinking about feminism so much as I was thinking very broadly about power and my relationship to it. It was great to take on a project where women occupying the traditionally masculine roles of protestor and cop weren’t treated as the punchline or end game. In your standard ‘lesbian’ fare, we wouldn’t be costumed anywhere near authentically. Usually those scenes are about ‘how cute she looks when she’s pretending to be in a position of that much power” which has its own appeal, trust, but gets old when that’s all you’re ever allowed to perform or see. There’s a lot of rich material to play from, we don’t have to get trapped in the same angle.

All my love to the Pink&White crew for always putting together a welcoming set, mad technical skills, a hot vibe, and great working conditions. I also want to encourage you to check out what Pink and White is up to because they’re going to keep getting bigger and better. They’re making waves in the world. I also want to say that I’m honored to have been in this category with other great directors and producers who are also doing cool things in porn. XOXOXO!


Shibari Dojo Vienna

Shibari Dojo Vienna


I’ve also been accepted as a speaker for the 2014 Feminist Porn Conference in Toronto, April 5-6. I’ll be talking about the advent of moving picture pornography. We think of feminist-indie-queer porn as being an alternative to mainstream porn, but how did those norms become established and just how alternative is alternative porn anyway? This year I didn’t submit any projects for the awards because 2013 was the year I felt properly christened into my name “Mayhem.” I’m happy to come in and be the nerd I am and share some of the smut from great-grandma and grandpa’s attic.

You can also come see me at Theorizing The Web 2014 in Brooklyn, April 25-26. This conference is pay-what-you-can so please come out to see some fantastic presentations out in Brooklyn. I’m really happy to be on the lineup because this conference went out of its way to solicit presentations from sex workers and is being accessible in every way it can. It’s going to be hosted in a Brooklyn warehouse and I am always SO THRILLED when I get to speak in non-conventional environments.


I’m interested in other speaking opportunities so please let me know if I should send an abstract to YOUR favorite conference. Let people know you want to see MAYHEM on the stage. I love challenging topics and I want to come to your local anarchist info shop, sex toy boutique, avante garde porn screening, death salon, sci fi panel, or dungeon discussion. If you get enough people together in your living room and feed me vegan eats, I’ll even come talk in your living room. True fact.

Shibari Dojo Vienna

Shibari Dojo Vienna



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Farewell, 2013

2013 was the name of the truck that hit and dragged me down a road. We’re not going to dwell on the downsides. We’re going to focus on the good parts because it’s New Year’s Eve and regardless of what we tweet or experience or capture on our iPhones, time moves forward. This too shall pass, whatever it is.

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Sex Work & Serenity

Right off the bat, I’m going to say that I am not a member of the Joss Whedon fan club.

“But he’s soooooo feminist and has complex female characters and he totally wrote a really positive sex worker character! Come on, you have to love Firefly.”

Well, no, actually, I don’t. You know what I would love? Diversity in the production and leadership of the entertainment industry. It’s well and good that Joss Whedon has a hard on for sexy looking ladies who can enact violence but you’re not a feminist just because you wrote a female character who can handle a sword. The Whedon canon is problematic on many levels but Whedon himself gets lots and lots of cookies for being a good liberal. When it comes to Firefly, you can’t ignore the omnipresent racism. I don’t hate Joss Whedon but I’m really not a fan of his work. He may have good intentions but they amount to sophomoric manifestations.

I’m not saying this as though I’ve got it all down myself. As I look back on my own body of work, I’m horrified by the ways that white supremacy has informed it. It’s embarrassing to look back on things I’ve written or said and I have very much needed some of the stern kicks to the ass I’ve gotten on my path to becoming a better writer, activist, and person.

No, I don’t care for Buffy. I’m sorry if I have disappointed my readership. I don’t really care for Firefly either but I did watch the entire (short) series. I am both a sex worker and something of a nerd and as such I get a lot of people who make the assumption that I genuinely must love (or, perhaps, be grateful for) the cult television show Firefly because it has an esteemed character whose profession is sex work. In many ways, the character Inara Serra has helped people re-conceive some of their notions of sex work and I do have friends and colleagues who enjoy the show and have a lot of good things to say about it.

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All About Latex Allergies

The other day I was at the dentist when I started to notice that my lips were beginning to itch and my nostrils were burning. I took a deep breath and the smell of rubber was unmistakeable. I raised my hand to get my doctor’s attention and asked, “Are those gloves latex?” He paused briefly and looked at the chart remarking, “Oh, you did check the latex allergy box.”

I was more than a little annoyed and my clinic professional voice came out, “It really is fundamental that you consult a patient’s chart before beginning any procedure.” He issued a rather disturbing response:

“Well, most people aren’t *that* allergic.”

That was the wrong thing for any medical professional to say. But why is that?


No more gas masks for me! An early modeling shot from 2008, photo by Sleek Images

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Guest Post: 5 Things That

From the 1st Godless Perverts Night!

From the 1st Godless Perverts Night! Greta is in the middle.

Note from Maggie: I’m proud to introduce Greta Christina who has been a feisty writer and activist for both sex and atheism. I lean more towards humanism these days as the skeptic and atheist realms seem to forget to “kick up” to the establishment. Greta is a hard working writer who is adept at handling tricky subjects and is a hell of a lot of fun to read. I love her non-fiction rage but I’m also glad she penned a collection of naughty fiction that will make you laugh and cum. She has been doing a blog tour to promote this work and you can check out her other stops by visiting her blog. Now note: I pretty much never do commercial endorsements here. Greta writes a mean book, she’s prolific, and she’s powerful. This is one of the people I’ve been following for awhile who has influenced what and how I write. Definitely check this out along with her (many) other books and amazing blog. Without further ago, here’s Greta!

5 Things That Piss Off This Godless Pervert

With all the time that one could spend writing fucked-up kinky porn and having deviant sex, how does one find the energy to rant against religion?

A quick introduction: Hi. I’m Greta Christina. I’ve been a sex writer since 1989, and an atheist writer since 2005. I’m co-organizer and co-host of the Godless Perverts Story Hour and the Godless Perverts Social Club in San Francisco (where else?). I’m the author of a new e-book of smutty perverted pornography — excuse me, erotic fiction! — titled “Bending: Dirty Kinky Stories About Pain, Power, Religion, Unicorns, & More” (available as an ebook on Kindle, Nook, and Smashwords; audiobook and print editions coming soon). I’m also the author of the bestselling atheist rant, “Why Are You Atheists So Angry? 99 Things That Piss Off the Godless” (available in print, audiobook, and ebook on Kindle, Nook, and Smashwords).

And for my guest post on Maggie Mayhem’s blog, she’s asked me to combine these two wheelhouses into one grand mega-wheelhouse (wheelmansion? Wheelcastle?). So for your dining pleasure today, I bring you: 5 Things That Piss Off This Godless Pervert.

1. The “damned if you do, damned if you don’t” religious hypocrisy that tells gay people to suppress and deny the sexuality they were undeniably born with… but that tells trans people that they have to accept the genitals and gender they were born with, and that they mustn’t tinker with God’s handiwork. You don’t get to have it both ways, people! Either God created us exactly the way he wants us, and wants us to accept it and submit to it… or he created us as a sort of guessing game, and wants us to shape ourselves into the people he intended us to be, giving us only a vague and self-contradictory set of arcane clues as a road map. (Of course, there is a third and far more plausible option… which is that God doesn’t exist, and our sexualities and genders come from a complex set of biological and social factors, and that as long as they don’t harm anyone, they’re nobody else’s freaking business. Sort of comforting when you think about it. And it has the added virtue of almost certainly being true.)

2. The fact that religiously-based shame, fear, and hatred of sexuality has helped keep sex so stigmatized… which means that good writers, photographers, filmmakers, actors, and other artists often stay away from the subject of sex, for fear or being trivialized at best and shunned at worst… which means that there’s not nearly enough good porn for me to enjoy. (Many thanks to the Mayhems for being an exception!)

3. The insidious way that religion uses sexual guilt to perpetuate itself. It’s like a doctor who poisons his patients, so he can keep treating them and keep them coming back. Religion gives you the disease — sexual guilt. It offers you the cure — the promise of forgiveness and absolution, as long as you stay in your religion and follow its rules. But the disease doesn’t ever go away. You still have the sexual desires you started the cycle with. So you have to keep coming back to religion… to make yourself feel better about the sexual desires that you wouldn’t feel guilty about in the first place if it weren’t for religion. I almost admire the Machiavellian craftiness of it all. Or I would, if it weren’t so fucked-up. (Hat tip to Darrel Ray, author of The God Virus: How Religion Infects Our Lives and Culture and Sex & God: How Religion Distorts Sexuality, for this insight.)

4. The hissy-fit that got thrown — by people who identify as sex-positive — when the Godless Perverts Story Hour gave away religiously-themed sex toys as door prizes — the Baby Jesus Buttplug,the Jackhammer Jesus dildo with a cruficix molded onto it in relief. I mean… really, people? With all the shit that religion has thrown at sexual deviants (heck, for that matter, at sexual non-deviants), blasphemous sex toys is what gets up your nose? With all the ways that religion has trampled on sex, for centuries, you’re worried that the Baby Jesus Buttplug might hurt some poor believer’s feelings?

5. Female genital mutilation; male genital mutilation; inaccurate and harmful “abstinence-only” sex education; the war on women and the steady rollback of reproductive rights; the rape of children by priests; the institutional protection of child-raping priests by the Catholic Church, for decades; girls in fundamentalist polygamous Mormon cults being married against their will, at ages as young as thirteen; girls in Islamic theocracies being married against their will, at ages as young as nine; women in Islamic theocracies being beaten, imprisoned, or executed for having sex outside marriage; female rape victims in Islamic theocracies being executed for the crime of adultery; the Magdalene laundries operated for decades in Ireland by the Catholic Church, which were essentially forced labor camps for sexually “immoral” women; the decree from the Dalai Lama that sex can only provide short-term pleasure and in the long term is inherently destructive; the decree from the Dalai Lama that all forms of sexuality other than penis-in-vagina intercourse are banned by Buddhist teachings; the decree from the Dalai Lama that gay sex is “wrong,” “unwholesome,” a “bad action,” “vices,” “not acceptable from a Buddhist point of view,” and “contrary to Buddhist ethics”; queer children being taught to hate and fear their queerness; female children being taught to hate and fear their femaleness; a gynecology conference in Jerusalem refusing to allow women to speak because of pressure from ultra-Orthodox Jewish leaders; the ultra-Orthodox “modesty patrols” in Jerusalem that harass, terrorize, spit on, and physically assault women and girls who don’t adhere to their modesty standards; the Christian teaching that lusting in your heart is every bit as sinful as actual physical adultery — a thought-crime that shames people for physical desires that are as deeply hard-wired by evolution as hunger or the need to sleep; the Catholic and Mormon churches teaming up to keep same-sex marriage illegal; gay teenagers getting kicked out of their homes by their Mormon families (40% of all homeless teenagers in Salt Lake City are gay); Quiverfull mothers being browbeaten into having as many babies as their bodies will produce; people in Africa and South America dying of AIDS because the Catholic Church convinced them that using condoms makes Baby Jesus cry…

… all perpetrated, rationalized, and perpetuated through the belief that God wants it this way. All perpetrated, rationalized, and perpetuated by people who have absolutely no good reason to think that they know what their god wants, any more than any of the billions of other people who happen to believe in a different god. All perpetrated, rationalized, and perpetuated using religion — which, because of its fundamental unverifiability and lack of any reality check, makes it uniquely armored against the criticism, questioning, self-correction, or anything else that might stop it from spinning into extreme absurdity, extreme denial of reality… and extreme, grotesque immorality.

So yeah. This godless pervert is a little pissed off.

On the other hand, we have porn. So there’s that.

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“Bending: Dirty Kinky Stories About Pain, Power, Religion, Unicorns, & More” is available as an ebook on Kindle, Nook, and Smashwords. Audiobook and print editions are coming soon.


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Link Love


Bawdy Storytelling Photos by Neuoptik Photography

Masters of psychedelic art: My household growing up had a lot of Peter Max and I always enjoyed the bright tertiary colors and flowing lines. Not surprisingly, art that appeals to someone tripping also appeals to kids. Although a lot of folks might want to decry this genre because of its illicit associations there is a tremendous amount of skill and theory applied here. It’s worthy of study and appreciation in all states of consciousness. It’s also had a massive impact on popular art since its inception.


No fap isn’t a challenge, it’s a way of life.” As a logical counterpoint to Reddit’s constant stream of ‘fap material’ is a forum of young men dedicating their time and energy to not fapping as a new take on the old idea of preserving masculinity by abstaining from masturbation.


100% Men is a Tumblr dedicated to depicting companies and corporatations whose leadership is 100% male.


The Mysterious Island Of The Dolls in Mexico is creepy and compelling to look at.


Men should read Hegel before dating is a short video from the coming documentary “Monogamy and its Discontents.”


High school student calls out Pam Stenzel for slut shaming. Her school principal is a total tool with bad ideas on educating teens who engages shaming behavior of his own. Wellesley welcomes their incoming student after the debacle over Twitter. I wrote about Pam Stenzel in 2009 after bearing a grudge from having to watch her horrible “Sex Has a Pricetag” videos in junior high and high school. Pam Stenzel is a lying liar who lies to teens about sex. She makes students feel bad about themselves and their sexuality. May she be known for what she is. I wrote about Stenzel in 2009.


Salvador Dali’s wife Gala was known as the “demon pride” and is said to have outdone him with her own set of sexual perversities, megalomania, and lust for cash.


The Revolution Will Not Be Funded is an anthology that questions the impact of the non-profit industrial complex on enacting social change. I think it’s crucial to consider this and I’ve certainly had my own clashes of this nature.


The Mating Octopus in photos. For all you cephalopod lovers out there.

ImageTriptychs by Mattie Brice explores labels and labeling through the lens of gaming and other personal identifiers. As always, she’s brilliant voice in the gaming community and radical bloggers at large.



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Musings On Mold

I can’t remember the PIN number to my handy-dandy, hippie-dippie credit union bank card. I’ve had it for sometime and I’ve never experienced a problem like this before in my life. All of the other uncharacteristic “brain farts” or missing pieces I could vaguely explain away to myself as cannabis or the one-size-fits all favorite, “getting older.”

There are things you know you forget. There are things you know are the most vulnerable to being forgotten during stressful times. Then there are things you just don’t forget.

My PIN number is one of things I just don’t forget and when I stood at the register of the grocery store trying to pick up just a few items for my anti-mold diet staring at my dumb fingers at the keypad with neither the muscle memory to type it out nor the ability to recall the sequence I knew that it was going to be a long recovery process.

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The Mayhems:

Our apartment had a mold situation “blossom” out of control. It pretty much ate up our lives and health. Let me tell you: Black Mold is awful! It made us sick, probably killed our cat Floozy, was a disaster for everything we owned, and we were kinda homeless for awhile looking for a friendly place for us and our (surviving) cat and dog. We did valiant battle against mold and junked most of our belongings and found new lodging.

We also presented the PSIgasm at South by Southwest . I was profiled at Nerve. Appeared at Naughty Natural.  Went to Merida, Mexico in the Yucatan. I also stopped by the Products are Hard conference in San Francisco.  I’m also still trying to plan a wedding party. Talk about stress city! It’s been a hectic month and it took a lot out of us. It was great to see Texas and Merida even if it meant having last minute cancelled flights, blizzards, lost baggage (TWICE!!!!), hotel fires, travel snafus, and other insanity.

Enjoy the photos and I’ll be working on writing some insane bullshit for you all to enjoy.

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2013: A New Year

Here are some photos from Christmas 2012-January 2013. I’ve been soooooo busy. Ned and I drove from Oakland all the way up to Seattle, WA for the holidays. It was an 800 mile journey. Folsom came with us and got to see both snow and sliding glass doors for the first time. We used AirBnB for our road trip accomodations and we were really, really thrilled. I would so much rather share my money with an individual than some shitty chain hotel company. It’s a fun way to get to know people AND we were also happy to meet people who didn’t mind our very energetic and enthusiastic mastiff/lab in their homes. Have I told you all lately how much I LOVE peer to peer interfaces and software?

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2012 was something of a wild year.

In January, Ned and I were proud to be a part of the SOPA blackout and we took down our websites in opposition. I’m really suspicious of anti-piracy efforts and I really believe that it’s more effective to brainstorm new ways to provide art and erotic content to interested media consumers. I am also terrified of web censorship and legislation that empowers corporate entities and not internet users.

February was a crazy wild month! I was at Yale and Princeton! I performed in San Diego, I spoke at BIL. I was on a panel with Gail Dines.

In March I was burned out and went hiking and jerked off for awhile recuperating from severe wipeout.

April was a very special month for me because I did some top secret paperwork that was really special. It was also the Feminist Porn Awards and our website was unable to process any credit card payments because Visa banned us for sacrilegious content. Rosaries in my vagina were too much for them. We made it a free porn weekend and set up a mirror to maintain the images and appease Visa.

In May I did some awesome traveling to Los Angeles and the Yucatan Peninsula. I also picked apart dominatrix shaming in ‘sex positive’ critique. I still don’t think that a lot of people comprehend what it means to exist outside of the law, especially in a post Prop 35 world. In this month, a beloved former employer of mine was stabbed to death in Santa Cruz, CA. I used to work at Camouflage as a college student. Her loss was sudden, tragic, and inexplicable. It was a shocking blow and my love is so deeply extended to her husband and to the Camo team both past and present who were touched by her life. I also spoke at FarmHouse Conf which I really enjoyed.

In June I proudly supported Kink Live models who spoke out about bad faith business practices by Kink.Com and shared some of my correspondence with the CEO that didn’t match what he had been sharing with the press. I also moderated a panel about 2nd generation non-monogamy with Ned and his family at Open SF.

July was sadly the month when Hollie Stevens passed away from breast cancer. She was a baller.

August was another month with a loss, this time taking my awesome cat Floozie. She had been a rescue kitty and was a brilliant and sweet Siamese-Tortie. I adopted her because she attempted to stow away in my purse. She slept right next to me on her first night in my apartment and snuggled up every night. She got her name from sitting on everyone’s lap. I also called out Maymay, a vocal critic with great ideas and very abusive tactics. This was an awkward process and I stand by my words. Fetish model Natali Demore also passed away in a shocking and tragic manner.

In September I talked about why I gave up shaving for a bold disco bush. I also spoke at Arse Elektronika which is an awesome, awesome sex and tech fest. I also was part of the Keynote Plenary at Catalyst Con.

October was my birthday month. I turned 28 very, very quietly and without fanfare. I also mused on what goes into sex worker activism.

In November we did some voting things. Prop 35 passed, striking fear into the hearts of sex workers through the state of CA and in many other states as well. CA sets a lot of legal precedents so I imagine we’re going to see similar legislation pop up in other places.

So far in December I’ve been supporting Ned through his physics qualitative exams and proudly celebrated his success. He is now a PhD candidate, not far from becoming Dr. Mayhem. I’ve also been keeping up with literary and political study.

I appeared in three films this year, Fast Girls, Fixed Gears and a G Spot and Female Ejaculation Edu-porn both directed by Madison Young as well as Strap It On by Filly Films directed by Lily Cade. I made multiple appearances at The Crashpad and did lots of work with Meet The Mayhems. I also got busy and really, really low budget dirty over at Extra Lunch Money where you can book me for private erotic shows, custom videos, and dirty texting.

In 2013:

I’ll be at SxSW with the PSIgasm! I’ve enjoyed getting out of the sex bubble to explore humanism, entheogens, broader philosophical ideas, direct political action, and esoteric thought. I really want to meet people in other strange and weird settings to share my ideas about the eroticism of alien abductions, anti establishment sex work, mental health, sensible drug policy and more. I’m really hoping to hear from people who would like to meet me and swap ideas.

I’ll be looking forward to travel and I’ll also be planning a wedding. This has been something I’ve been very shy about but it has been wonderful news for awhile. We Mayhems are very much in love and we’ve been hoping to celebrate. I think a lot of people over estimate how much money is in our wallets and we don’t have a lot. It’s a largely bohemian existence we live in queer porn but it’s filled with love and optimism. We’ve really enjoyed sharing our sexuality and relationship model with others. In some many ways, I married him in my heart when we worked together in Haiti. We don’t have a conventional relationship but that’s for the birds–we’ll take love and Mayhem any day.

I’ve been saving my pennies to put together a reception for friends and family but things will probably be very moderate. My concerns are ambiance, good food, good jazz, and good wine. I’m not terribly worried about a dress and right now I’m sporting then ring my grandfather gave my grandmother. It’s very old so sizing it has been a struggle and it’s missing a few stones. Still, I don’t see the need to rush out and put more diamonds into the world.

It’s been a very exciting year and although this year did have a number of painful losses, it was also a year of tremendous love and growth. I think I would have felt more despair and less success without my partner by my side. I’m a very small Mayhem with a shoe string budget and a lot of big dreams. I’ve been excited by the oppportunities presented to me for progress. I think I’m learning to write better and my speaking engagements are more diverse and strong.

Thanks to everyone for the love and support they’ve offered. I really am looking forward to getting to know more of you and to keep branching out into new and exciting fields of thought.


I am excited about booking and publishing offers and always appreciate tokens of appreciation from my wishlist. Thanks for reading!


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